So much to say, yet so much I will not say
I know that I have not been posting as much as I did. I have had a lot going on.
It is coming close to the time of my departure, but I am having second thoughts. Not sure if it is my own fear, the things that have been said that I was not meant to hear or so it would seem, or is it something else. I am not sure anymore. Are my own deep personal secretes that I have kept inside for so long beginning to want to be out? Am I just being the nice person and not wanting to hurt anyone so I say, nothing?
My whole life I have kept stuff inside and not let it out. I know, this is not what you should do. That is the way my family is. You have a problem, you go to church say the rosary, you do not talk about it, and all is right again. That is all fine and good, but that does not work for everyone. I am not putting religion down in any way; I am just a lot more open minded about stuff then my family is. Old school catholic would be the best way to describe them. The type that feel you have to go to a catholic school, volunteer more time then you have, marry a catholic, and every family should have a priest if not every generation every other generation. Guess who the chosen one in my family was/is? As I said I am not putting religion down, I know the majority of people in the world feel that religion is a key part of life and I hold nothing against them. It is when their views and beliefs are pushed upon others that I get upset.
What this post was meant to be was for those of you I have talked to in the past couple of weeks and I seemed distant or not wanting to talk, it was not you. I am dealing with a lot of things and the support I am getting is not coming from the places it should be coming from and the problems are coming from all over so I do not want to confront some of the old one and create new ones at this time. Seems complicated and a mess, and it is but it will get sorted out in the end. So just give me time and I will be back to my old self. And keep checking this blog; this might be one of the last posts for a couple of weeks or maybe a month. I will be back. Thanks for reading.
Garry “The Extreme Alpha Geek” Hammond
It is coming close to the time of my departure, but I am having second thoughts. Not sure if it is my own fear, the things that have been said that I was not meant to hear or so it would seem, or is it something else. I am not sure anymore. Are my own deep personal secretes that I have kept inside for so long beginning to want to be out? Am I just being the nice person and not wanting to hurt anyone so I say, nothing?
My whole life I have kept stuff inside and not let it out. I know, this is not what you should do. That is the way my family is. You have a problem, you go to church say the rosary, you do not talk about it, and all is right again. That is all fine and good, but that does not work for everyone. I am not putting religion down in any way; I am just a lot more open minded about stuff then my family is. Old school catholic would be the best way to describe them. The type that feel you have to go to a catholic school, volunteer more time then you have, marry a catholic, and every family should have a priest if not every generation every other generation. Guess who the chosen one in my family was/is? As I said I am not putting religion down, I know the majority of people in the world feel that religion is a key part of life and I hold nothing against them. It is when their views and beliefs are pushed upon others that I get upset.
What this post was meant to be was for those of you I have talked to in the past couple of weeks and I seemed distant or not wanting to talk, it was not you. I am dealing with a lot of things and the support I am getting is not coming from the places it should be coming from and the problems are coming from all over so I do not want to confront some of the old one and create new ones at this time. Seems complicated and a mess, and it is but it will get sorted out in the end. So just give me time and I will be back to my old self. And keep checking this blog; this might be one of the last posts for a couple of weeks or maybe a month. I will be back. Thanks for reading.
Garry “The Extreme Alpha Geek” Hammond
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